Joker Files

I don’t care that I’m into heavy music and I wear band shirts.

I am a lady. And I deserve to be treated like one.

I miss my knives. I miss my blades. I’ve come close to relapse. But I haven’t quite gone under yet.
I might tonight.

Truth is; I’m scared.
I’m scared of my friends. I’m scared of my family. I’m scared of Dom. And I’m scared of myself.

If I do anything, I’ll use my stomach… It’s always safer on the stomach… No one looks there. And I don’t let Dom touch me there.

Well hidden. like it doesn’t exist.

Maybe I should wait until after prom.
In case we do anything. A prom dress on the floor won’t do me any good.

But why would we do anything? He doesnt want me.